Holly’s Chapter *sniff* I cut some lines out because they didn’t fit.

All I see is regrets 

Holly lay in bed, her tearstains trickling down her pillow. She tried to bury her face into it and forget, but to no avail. She had a great job in the LEP, making ten times any other officer made, she was a well-known celebrity in Haven, and fan letters came from aspiring young elves every day. But she’d trade it all for her mud boy.

As I look at choices,
I’ve made in my life.
I only see a mess,
That hasn’t been right.

The dammed day. The dammed day that she walked away from the only person she held dear. She was a demon, she cast off the only one who cared about her the way he did. Why did she walk away?

As I look at mistakes,
And things I’ve did.
I’m very disappointed,
At the things I did.

Artemis was her savior, friend, and lover, plus more. He was the rock of refuge, the only one she could confide in. Every day, she visits the Operations booth with Foaly and Callibine kissing and hugging and feel a sharp pain in her throat. But there was no use in thinking about the things that could have been… Holly had not looked in a mirror in seven years now. Every time she laid her eyes on her sapphire blue eye, her heart thrashes and constricts. The only thing she had of Artemis’s…

 Not all is what it seems,
With things other see.
Because I always hide,
What is bothering me.
I’m sad that I settled,
For what I could get
Now as I look back,
All I see is regrets.
She was a lowly coward. Holly knew that no human could ever want a fairy. She could never wistand the heartbreak once Artemis grew older and rejected her. She tried to sever the chain while things were still fresh. Better then than to get hurt later. Or at least that was her thinking at the time. Even if she did find a way to age with him, what could a brilliant young human possibly want with a three feet elf that would have to spend most of her life underground? He deserved someone better than that… which is why she wrote a plead letter to Minerva before she went back to Haven for good.

I didn’t chase my dreams,
And they’ve all got away.

Holly’s career meant nothing to her. Her finances meant nothing to her. If only she could take Artemis back…but after seven years of seperation, how could she ever pick up the nerve to even approach his doorstep?

Not all is what it seems,
With things other see.
Because I always hide,
What is bothering me.
I’m sad that I settled,
For what I could get
Now as I look back,
All I see is regrets.

All these regrets, and nothing to do about them… she was a fool. To give up dreams in fear, and not striving for the future. Holly strapped a rope around her neck, and kicked away the chair, ready to join her Romeo at last…

All I see is regrets…

Okay, I know it kinda sucks compared with Arty’s story, but reviews are appreciated!

Some other stories by Star Jinin:

• Short Update!
• Beautiful Lie
• The Unknown Audience
• Death Note
• Untimely meeting ;)