“I’ve Been Dreaming For So Long, To Find The Meaning, To Understand, The Secret Of Life, Why Am I Here, To Try Again . . . In My Heart In My Soul, I Turn It Back It’s My Fault,” Jillian (I’d Give My Heart), Within Temptation, The Silent Force.

Jessica’s POV

This is so weird. I’m sure that I wouldn’t get used to this; ever. I’ve lived with Jamie for almost my entire life, woken her up, helped her curl her hair; and I’ve told her that she’s completely weird.

But I will never get used to acting like her in public; or acting in general, for that matter. When Jamie wakes up, she’ll hate me, if she doesn’t already; yet I have to risk it, I can’t defy Tamie.

I was interrupted from these dark thoughts when I happened across Jamie’s diary.

Jamie’s POV

What Violet handed me was a manila envelope; undoing the tie, I sifted through the papers inside.

Love notes to me from Trevor, pictures, notes from the rest of The Group to me and Jess, letters between Jess and Tamie.

And a letter. I recognized Jessica’s flowing, embellished cursive immediately.

Dear Jamie,

I don’t know how to explain what I’m about to do; but I’ll try. I can’t stay, or else they’ll be after me. I don’t want to end up like Marina. I need alone time, so I’m running away. It’s only temporary, but it is necessary. If you need to find me, you can. Don’t tell mom and dad. If they are going to try to find me, please let me know. If they over react, I’d like to know that too. The Changes are complete, and I need to adjust and find a way to explain or else mom might react the same way to me that she did to Marina.  
This isn’t easy, but I’ll find a way. As we always say: where there’s a will, there’s a way.
I’ll see you soon, if it’s not too late.

Sisterly Love From Your Twin,

Jessica Crystal Marceto

“So that’s why she left, I’ve always wanted to know; but why give this too me now?”

Jessica’s POV

Her diary. I can’t believe it, she actually used the diary I gave her on our thirteenth birthday; she never used a diary before then. If I were Jamie, where would I put the key to my diary?

I stared at the cover of her diary, as if it would come to life and answer my questions; when I noticed the poem on the front of the cover, written in Jamie’s angular print.

Looking in my looking glass,
I see two sides of me,
One who goes to mass,
One who would climb a tree,
But behold it is not only me,
For it is also my other half,
One who reads quietly is she,
Me who loves to laugh.

The mirror; that’s where it is, it’s on the back of a photo on the mirror’s frame; very clever. Walking to the mirror, I looked for the right picture. One of the two of us; and found it, it was a picture of me reading while she gave me bunny ears. Taking it down, I grabbed the key and unlocked the diary.

What caught my eye was the page that it opened to, it was tear stained.

Friday 9/11/09

Dear Diary,
It’s our fourteenth birthday, but it isn’t a time to rejoice right now. She’s gone; Jessica’s gone. No note, no nothing, she just disappeared, which really worries me. I’m trying to remain positive but it’s not working. Things have gone completely wrong, no one knows where she is. I tried asking The Group, but if they knew anything they didn’t let on. The police tried looking for her but couldn’t find her. I’ve asked everyone at the Ringuana tona Justianas, but they have no clue, not that they’d care about the fate of my vampire sister. I’ve also checked in with the Vanaesane Hunotine, but they all say that they didn’t hurt her. I don’t trust the vampire hunters word, but if they are telling the truth, then it could have easily been an unregistered vampire hunter. What do I do?

Yours Truly,

Jamie

“I didn’t know,”

Some other stories by Lydia Tall:

• Updates!
• D Is For Dead
• 9/11/01
• C Is For Conviction
• B Is For Betrayal