Italics are the song. Bold is what Trouble is thinking. A little swearing, so don’t be offended. Enjoy!
You, with your words like knives and sworsd that you use against me
Ark Sool. Possibly the LEP’s worst commander ever. He hates me. All because I supported Julius. And because I want Holly to return.
You, have knocked me off my feet again, got me feeling like I’m nothing
He’s screaming at me on a trivality yet again. I’m starting to feel like a civillian, not a respected Major who was second in command six months ago.
You, with your vioce like nails on a chalkboard calling me out when I’m wounded, You picking on the weaker man.
Even Julius in a blind rage was much easier to deal with. I respected him. Just because you’re the commander doesn’t mean you get to be a bully.
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow. But you don’t know what you don’t know.
He could easily fire me. But he likes tormenting me far too much. What our “respected commander” doesn’t know, or belive, is that Holly will return. I’ll be waiting. Hoping.
Someday I’ll be commander of the whole dang LEP and all you’re ever gonna be is mean.
Sool won’t last. He’ll wash out in a couple of years, and everyone will be glad. Me and Viyaya especially. Julius’s death was particulary hard on her.
Someday I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me, and all you’re ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean?
Sool is a complete jerk. He’s put me on a week’s recon suspension for the simple act of having a picture of Holly on my desk. I miss her. He thinks that I’m being rebellious, because they’ve been declared missing, presumed dead. Sool told us to forget her.
You, with your switching sides and your wildfire lies and your humiliation
Sool has, yet again, yelled at me in front of the men I’m supposed to be in charge of.
You have pointed out my flaws again, as if I don’t already see them. I walk with my head down, trying to block you out cause I’ll never impress you. I just wanna feel okay again.
“You’re incompetent! A daydreamer! A loose cannon!” He’s yelling again. I resist the urge to throttle him. When dismissed, I walk out, my head litterally hanging. Vinyaya’s at the door, her eyes understanding. “I hate him too” she whispers, barely audibly. We ride the bus to our homes together, talking about Foaly’s latest time spells. It looks like Holly could be back in three to five years. I get home, and simply lie on my bed. I just want one day to go by without being berated by Sool.
I bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold. But the cycle ends right now cause you can’t lead me down that road. And you don’t know what you don’t know.
I think something new. Why is Sool so cold? I wonder. I will never act like him, I decide. If I ever become commander, I won’t be a jerk. I’ll be more like Vinyaya and Julius.
Someday, I’ll be commander of the whole dang LEP, and all you’re ever gonna be is mean. Someday, I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me, and All you’re ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean?
Holly, where are you? I fall asleep with bitter tears falling down my cheeks. I hate my life right now.
And I can see you years from now in a bar, talking over a crunchball game, with that same big loud opinion, but nobody’s listening. Washed up and ranting about the same old bitter things. Drunk and grumbling on about how you’re important. But all you are is mean.
The next morning, I wake up smiling. I had a dream about being commander, with Sool fired. If only. Oh well. D’arvit, I’ll be late! That’ll probably get me an hour or so of screaming.
But all you are is mean. And a liar. And pathetic. And alone in life and mean. And mean, and mean, and mean. But someday, I’ll be commander of the whole dang LEP and all you’re ever gonna be is mean. Someday I’ll be big enough so you can’t hit me, and all you’re ever gonna be is mean. Why you gotta be so mean?
I go to work with my head held high. I see Sool for what he is. An old, cranky jerk that feels the need to be superior. Within five minutes, though, I’m considering quitting. Like Holly. Holly, please come back to us soon!