*Authors note: This is a songfic since (nearly) everybody (ok a couple of people) was creating songfics I thought why don’t I so here goes nothing…enjoy*

Story of my life, searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul ’cause it seems so wrong

Really loves my company

Holly felt so guillty as she clung onto a picture of Trouble “I’m sorry” she whispered and kissed the picture as a tear slid down her nutbrown skin. She dropped the picture and got up from her bed

He’s more than a man and this is more than love

The reason why the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in because I’m gone again

And to him I just can’t be true

Holly wondered whether it was worth it, whether she should be doing this. She wondered if she even deserved Trouble. As her thoughts faded, her mind was filled with grey clouds.

And I know that he knows I’m unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I’m happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

“Holly, are you all right?” asked Trouble as he knocked on her door. “I’m fine. I just need some alone time.” “Ok” muttered Trouble as his heart sank a notch down. Holly sank back in her chair as she pictured a dying Trouble. Tears burst from her hazel eye but her piercing blue eye remained cold and heartless.

I don’t wanna do this any more

I don’t wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don’t wanna hurt him anymore

I don’t wanna take away his life

I don’t wanna be…a murderer

‘Why can’t I stop this madness? Why must it end all in tears? My life is definetly ruined, and I have no one to blame but myself.’ Holly pictured the times when she had walked out the door, she saw Trouble turn around, she knew it was to hide the tears sprouting from his eyes. Holly knew that she was killing him, little by little she knew that he felt like she was wasitng away his life bit by bit. But she couldn’t help it. She felt like a murderer. A traitor. She hated the gut wrenching feeling. She wished she had never started it never left. But as soon as she started it was like a drug, clinging on to her so she’d never stop until it claimed someones life. But Holly felt sure that this muderous drug was soon to claim Trouble’s rather than her’s.

I feel it in the air, as I’m doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek, he’s here reluctantly

As if I’m gonna be out late

Holy’s communicator started going off, she picked it up and pushed the answer button. “Hey, Holly, sweety, you ready yet?” asked an all too familiar voice. “Just wait. I’ll be there in a sec.” she replied. She sat in front of her mirror, wiping the tears from her face and doing her hair and makeup. She hesitated while she put on her lipstick. Walking slowly towards her wardrobe, she felt an uneasy atmosphere surround her like a sea of sorrow. The dress she was wearing was from Trouble but the stones around her neck were from the forbidden one. Holly walked to the door. “Hey Hols looking nice” he said with a tad bit of disapointment, “Don’t stay out too long, ok?” and he gave her a quick peck on the cheek.

I say I won’t be late just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn’t have to tell

Because we both know where I’m about to go

And we know it very well

“Sure. I’m only hanging out with the girls anyway.” Great lie Holly she thought I didn’t even need to do that, he probably knows anyway Holly’s heart sank a bit further. Why is she doing this to me? Trouble thought She’s lying to me again, why oh why is she torturing me so? Have I done anything to deserve this? There’s still hope though…I suppose. I suppose if she’s happy then that’s all that matters. “See you then.” said Holly.

‘Cause I know that he knows I’m unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don’t wanna do this anymore

I don’t wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don’t wanna hurt him anymore

I don’t wanna take away his life

I don’t wanna be…a murderer

As she walked out the door she could see tears swelling (I think thats grammatically correct probably not) in his deep sincere eyes. “Bye” He muttered as he turned his head so that Holly couldn’t see his tears sprouting from his eyes. “Darvit!” breathed Holly as she ran to the next magma flare for Tara. Darvit was right. She couldn’t believe that she was still going to him. A picture fuzzed her vision as she saw the arrogant youth who had seduced her. He was the murderous drug. How could she resist him? That slender frame, that smooth, black, raven hair, that cold pale face, those long sleek fingers, those peircing blue eyes that watched her like a hawk on its prey. And she was the prey who had fallen into his well manicured claws. She had been doing this for weeks yet she felt so guilty and couldn’t stop the insanity.

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun

And put it to his head

Get it over with

I don’t wanna do this…

Anymore, anymore

And I don’t wanna do this anymore

I don’t wanna be…a murderer

Day by day Holly watched Trouble as he weakened bit by bit. She felt so sorry. He was so sweet, trustworthy, loyal he was so…Faithful. Whereas as she was the one who had trodden him down into the ground and walked off. She was quite clearly…

A murderer, no no no

…unfaithful

*Authors note: I know I suck at songfics and you’re all like oh no not another sad fic that makes me wanna go waaaah but I just felt like it flames are allowed but won’t be welcome whatsoever and yes my grammer sucks big time but thats just how bad my brain is although I am doing this at midnight so you can’t blame me if you hate this. Anyway PLEASE R&R PEOPLE. Oh and if you like this songfic I’ll be happy to write another one if you like (you probably won’t but what the heck) ! and does anybody like this song or artist (Rihanna) cos I totally adore them!!!*

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• Winner of the Valentine's Day competition
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